This morning while trying to get somethings done for my social media accounts, I decided to put on some background music. And I decided on this song, ‘I look to you,’ by the late Whitney Houston. I don’t normally work while listening to music, it’s really distracting and I get nothing done. My work area needs to be quiet and in order. But the calling was there, for me to go back to this song, and it lifted me.
I’ve been connecting with others with Chiari and although I’m grateful, it also tends to try to pull me down. On one hand I’m happy there others experiencing what I’m going through, but on the other, it’s incredibly sad to know there are others trying to get through their day with chronic pain.
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I get asked a few questions when someone realizes my diagnosis, and one that always sticks out is, ‘how do you do it?’ I understand because it’s almost dumbfounding to see this mother of six living with chronic pain. And there is no one answer, there is no perfect answer, actually there is no answer other than Him. He gets me out of bed when my body isn’t able to, He reminds me I am loved when I feel I’m a failure, He helps me take the steps when I’m in too much pain to walk, He holds my head when I feel it’s going to explode in pain, He helps me care for my children when I feel too ill, He reminds me to take my medication because He knows how much I dislike them, it’s Him, that’s how I do it – daily.
If you’ve never heard this song – or haven’t heard it in a while, I invite you to listen. It’s an amazing song, full of hope, because what you’re going through today you will get through by looking up to Him.
My favorite verse in the song, ‘After all my strength is gone, In you I can be strong.’
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all
And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to
I look to you
In you I can be strong
I look to you
In you I hear a song
There’s no more fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door
Led to my regret
And I don’t know if I’m gonna make it
Nothing to do but lift my head
I look to you
In you I can be strong
I look to you
In you…
A-
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I have heard this song in the past, and have always enjoyed it, but my favorite Whitney song is “I want dance with somebody” it all uplifts me and makes me want to break out into a dance party.
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Yes! That’s a great one!
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such a heart felt and beautifully written post Ana! thank you for sharing.
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A beautiful song. I can see why it inspires people. Poor Whitney had her own struggles she battled daily.
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Yes, beautiful song indeed. Ugh! I agree. We all handle our struggles, depression and sadness in different ways. It’s a shame mental health isn’t taken as serious as it should. And therapy is often frowned upon. I sought therapy and it truly helps to cope.
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It’s a beautiful song.
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It is, so glad you enjoyed it. 🥰
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Whitney is my favourite singer, her birthday was earlier this month! I have 30 of her songs in my music collection, including this one! #Keeping… Up! God bless!
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Yessss! Was it the 9th or so, not sure. My top three is her, Celine Dion and Mariah Carey – But Adele is AMAZING as well! Leaves me speechless every time. 🥰
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The 9th, have them all in my collection! Blessings to you!
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😳 That’s amazing!
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Beautiful Ana. We look to Him each and every moment of every day. Love you friend! 💜💕
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Moment by moment Viv! I have to think about what I want to do before I even attempt to move my body! It’s like having my every step calculated. My body dictates where I can and can not go.
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I know that is so hard Ana. I’m keeping you always in my heart and prayers. This post really encouraged my soul tonight! 💕
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I’m so glad! Sometimes we don’t even realize the depth of our feelings until God sends us a sign that lifts us. 😊
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I can very much relate to that. By the way, I am able to cry again…..the emotional numbness from May/June has worn off and now the tears are coming. I think it’s progress!🙂🙌
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That’s great! It’s hard and we tend to be stubborn at times, thinking we need to suppress our feelings. But it’s so important to be present with how we feel at the moment, if you need to cry, cry, if you need to rest, rest, there’s absolutely no shame in sleeping and doing nothing when dealing with chronic pain.
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Thank you for sharing that song. It is wonderful and I have saved it to continue to listen to.
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I’m so glad you enjoyed it! Yes, the lyrics are amazing and Whitney Houston – 🥰 there will be no one quite like her.
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I can certainly understand a bit of what you go through. I also live with chronic pain and have for a long time now. Hope you have a great day!😃😺🌞
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Yes, it’s a bit of a struggle to do the day to day things, but we get by. Pain and all! You’re one strong man Steve! Thank you, and you as well 😊
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Yes, the pain is always there, even painkillers don’t take it away completely. But the strength comes from God each day.🙂
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I agree! I don’t know what happens to our bodies from taking pain medication for so long, does it become resistant?!
So yes, we absolutely need something much stronger to help us get through it all.
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Yes, after awhile the medication doesn’t work so good due to drug resistance from our bodies, so it’s necessary to increase after awhile. I actually use a combination of 3 medications now. Works okay, but not completely. But trying something stronger had a negative effect on me so I don’t want to do that again.
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Yes, makes total sense. They’ve increased my meds a few times. This last time the doctor increased one for the second time and were combining it with another. The two work good together. BUT, it knocks me to sleep! So, around that 3pm mark, I’m just about ready to fall asleep standing! 😂 They work all right, too well!
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Yes, one of mine puts me to sleep as well. I can only use it at home since it can knock me out without warning. But it helps good too.😀
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Exactly! It hits me like a ton of bricks. It’s horrible though when you have to do things, because I find myself torn, do I want pain relief and is what I want to do important? Ugh 🤔
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Yes, I know what you mean about that!😕🙄
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