Dear 15 Year Old Me – Tag

This is so incredibly exciting! This is something that Everyday Magic With Jubilee and I have been working on for a few days, e-mailing back and forth, trying to create a wonderful tag for you all. Thank you Jubilee for trusting me and joining me in creating this phenomenal tag – I’ve enjoyed the process!

As I’ve gotten older, I’ve often times looked back, either that is on positive or negative decisions I made at the tender age of fifteen. This tag helped me dig a little deeper at what my life was like, things I went through and what I would tell the old me – all these years later. The one thing that absolutely stands out is a heartbreak I experienced at such a young age. I met a boy at fifteen, I thought we’d be in each others lives for the long run, and boy was I wrong! It’s one of those things you experience – some you wish you hadn’t, and heartbreak – at any age, but especially at a young age, can be devastating. And so here through the tag I’ll look back and I’ll share some details on that, and give the fifteen year old me some words of encouragement.

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•  Mention the creators of the tag and link back to their blog.

This tag was created by Everyday Magic With Jubilee and Mom Life With Chiari. You can click on the highlighted names to check out more inspirational posts from their blogs. Make sure to tag them in your post so that they can read your letters of encouragement.

•  Thank whoever nominated you and link back to their blog.

•  Nominate 5 other bloggers that you love and notify them by commenting on their latest blog post.

Often times we may wish that we could go back in time and give our former selves advice and words of wisdom. If you could go back in time, what would advice or encouragement would you give to yourself?

Dear 15 year old me,

1. Don’t be hard on yourself because …

true beauty isn’t on the number you wear. Your beauty shines from within. Try healthier alternatives to losing weight, you’ve dropped down to a size 0 and are having to buy new clothes due to rapid drop in weight – I see you, and although the world celebrates a thin body, it’s making you sick. You’ll be blessed that this will only last but a short time and you’ll be saddened by what you made your body go through. Don’t be so hard on yourself, the decision to once again enjoy eating will be a great one!

2. The relationship you’re in ….

isn’t going to be forever. I see you, don’t be saddened by this. You know the words that were said, the moments that were shared, none were meant to last forever. Don’t fall so hard, I see you. You’re loving, you’re investing so much of your time, your heart, your everything, you’re risking it all, is he?! I see you, you’re believing and hanging on to his every word, I know it’s hard, to believe things won’t turn out the way he’s saying but, trust me, one day he won’t think about anyone but himself. I see you, wanting not to believe me now, but trust me, the ring, the endless flowers with handwritten notes, the album you both made together with moments shared now printed for a forever, he drew your names on the inside, I see you! Yes, it’s hard to believe that the future that you both speak about often will only be nothing more than that – spoken words. I see you, not believing me again, I know! But trust me when I tell you, that when he makes his plans to leave on vacation to his homeland, don’t give away what’s most precious, God loves you sweet girl, don’t do it! God loves you far more than this boy ever will. Why are you risking so much?! I see you, giving your heart out, is he? Oh I know his family is amazing, but does he think you are too?! You’re so much more than you know sweet girl, and a man that loves you will value you until the end. I see you, does he?

3. You will get through this because …

you are stronger than you think you are, you just don’t know it yet. You’ll run into many walls because you’re so angry and hurt by the break up – don’t be, stop and mourn! If you don’t mourn, you will continue to be angry and on a path to self destruction, it isn’t your fault it didn’t work out, it never was, I see you! Thinking you’ve lost years of yourself, you’ve lost your heart, you think you made a fool out of yourself – don’t! Somethings are worth risking and sometimes heartbreak comes in different forms, I know, I’m sorry it happened too. But stop what you’re doing and dig deep in yourself to overcome these feelings, because living in darkness will do nothing but destroy you. You’re working by day and being angry at night. You’re upset thinking that you’re alone in your feelings, and no one understands the loss that you’ve experienced! A pregnancy will come out of your actions, this is what God has in His plans for you, to save you! Otherwise, you will continue down the wrong path and you will thank your baby girl everyday for being such a sweet girl.

4. Don’t get caught up in thinking …

you are weak, you’re not! Believing something someone says doesn’t make you weak, or naive, it makes you in tune with your feelings, it makes you a risk taker, you risked it all! You will slowly begin to restore the faith you had in men and you will slowly begin to open your heart again. You will go through so much, you will be diagnosed with a rare illness, Chiari Malformation + Syringomyelia – 1 in 1,000 people have it, because you’re so strong! I see you, you don’t believe you can take on this illness, but you will – with all the strength you have in you! You’ve dealt with the news as best as you could, being positive and praying for strength – you’ve got strength! You’ll also be a mom to six little ones, I know – how amazing! That doctor that told you today you weren’t going to be able to carry a child due to the state of your ovaries, God is far greater than any of that! Don’t take the medication, God’s going to heal you and you will carry not one child, but six. You’ll be criticized, judged, and persecuted for having your babies but have courage, because they’re your gifts from Him. You’ll have six c-sections, I told you, you weren’t weak, you’re stronger than you know sweet girl! And they’ll have your eyes – yes, the Korean features will continue to live on through them. And they’ll look up to you, for advice and endless laughs because they love your jokes!

5. These experiences will help you learn …

that you have more strength than you know and you will begin to heal your broken heart. It’ll help you have more patience with yourself, be more loving and caring, because you are absolutely beautiful just the way you are. It’ll also remind you, that the only love you can crave for, is God’s. He won’t let you down, He won’t make you believe things that will turn out to be untrue. He’s there, He sees your pain, He sees your worries, He sees you the way I see you, such a beautiful soul, was broken and slowly is getting back on her feet. Because life is full of experiences, we learn from them and continue moving forward, not back.

Nominees:

Gods Whispers Of Truth

The Eclectic Contrarian

i Scriblr

Bereaved Single Dad

Sparkkling Thoughts

A Crack In The Pavement

Daily Grind Of A Stay At Home Mom

My Lil Place

Four Jordans

Simply Chronically Ill

Something To Stu Over

OJs Pride

Wonky Brain Blog

To all my nominees, I admire your strengths, your writings and look forward to reading your answers.
All my best.
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Reblog Wednesday: Weekly Wisdom 13 September — MiddleMe

If you’re new to my blog, Reblog Wednesday’s is to show my appreciation to a post that deeply meant something to me. This week, I chose Kally from Middle Me. She has worked in many fields, from education, to healthcare, to IT and advertising. She is also full of such great advice in topics such as work place environment, interviewing and education – like switching majors. Interesting right, yes, I think so too.

This post she recently shared, speaks so much truth and touched my heart. I couldn’t pass on the opportunity to share with you. A little truth about me, after a difficult break up, I became lost and soon after, pregnant with my first child. I was young – 22 years old, so lost, broken and pregnant. I had a great position at a prestigious law firm, but my heart was broken and my soul empty. I was lost and I didn’t know how to find myself again in the midst of that breakup, I was living in complete darkness.

Today, I am so thankful – as I was the day I found out I was pregnant, thankful for my daughter. It was nothing I ‘planned,’ but in retrospect I know that pregnancy saved me, she saved me – from myself. He knew how to save me, He was right.

It took that ‘fall’, that event in my life, for me to build the courage to rise again, to get back on track, to get my sh&sh together and learn to live again.

What event’s in your life have given you a ‘good fall’? Those unseen bruises, those bumps – some larger than others, both though of which have served for a better good in your life.

via Weekly Wisdom 13 September — MiddleMe

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Reblog Wednesday: No Perfect Answer — MakeItUltra™

This ‘Reblog Wednesday’ comes from Dr. Perry, his blog is so motivational. Do you ever go about your day questioning certain things in your life? Do you ever get them answered, perhaps some you do, while others you don’t. This quote reminds me of how there have been too many times to count the days where my questions go unanswered. At times I question many things most often when I’m in a doctor’s appointment waiting to be called, during an MRI exam or a CT Scan, etc. These specific events always take me back to a place I often don’t like to revisit. In particular the why’s of my Chiari and Syringomyelia diagnosis, why not, after all, I am that 1 in 1,000. And maybe this isn’t the case for you, maybe you have unanswered questions about the loss of a job, heartbreak, a breakup, a medical diagnosis for yourself or someone you know, whatever the case maybe, this quote comes to relieve you of that stress. I am a true believer that in God’s hands is where it all must go, and with this comes freedom.

Freedom is, when you stay in the now and leave tomorrow for tomorrow.

And as the quote continues to read, ‘there may very well be no perfect answer.’ He’s absolutely right, as stubborn as I am, even if I did get an answer as to why I am that 1 in 1,000 the answer may very well not be enough for me.

via No Perfect Answer — MakeItUltra™

If I can’t change my diagnosis, at least I can change my perspective.

Happy Wednesday.

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