Reblog Wednesday: Lost on You — Weeping Pines

Oh love! So wonderful yet so complicated. It can make you feel complete as it can also make you feel lost. Do you know about that kind of love?! That love that’s gained, a love loss, a love that was never realized, that kind of love? Do you know about the love that comes along with many other things, whether that is a happy ending or one that ultimately broke your heart, whether you agreed to move on and away or you were the one let go – it’s all part of love and life. Have you experienced this type of love? I have, maybe you have too. Maybe we all will at one point or another in our lives.

On that note, today I share with you this wonderful piece by Weeping Pines. I found it to be gut wrenching, heart breaking yet so honest and true. As the words describe so vividly the consequences of loving so hard and having to let go.

Happy Wednesday!

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Move on, chanted a friend. Holding on will only send you packing into the doldrums, sneered another. Honestly, you don’t wish to move on and are happy being unhappy, reproached a third. Mridul knew they meant well; they wanted him to clamber up the wells of despondency, to let go and move on. But how could […]

via Lost on You — Weeping Pines

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Sunshine Blogger Award – 2

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Hey everyone, how exciting to know I got nominated by the very talented blogger over at All Things Alexyss, she’s a makeup artist, writes about makeup, fashion and lifestyle – stop by her blog and say hello! Thank you Alexyss for the nomination, I appreciate it!

The Rules:

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you in the post and link to their blog
  • Answer the 11 questions asked of you
  • List the rules and include the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post
  • Write a new list of 11 questions for your nominees
  • Nominate 11 bloggers for the Sunshine Blogger Award

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Questions from All Things Alexyss:

1. How did you first get into blogging?

I got into blogging, I believe in February of this year. After years of contemplating as to whether or not to do it, having a passion for writing but not believing I can do blogging, I finally gave it a go! And here we are. My main focus is to spread awareness for Chiari Malformation + Syringomyelia it’s a rare congenital neurological disorder – phew! That’s a mouth full, yes, it’s definitely a fun task to have to explain this to people.

2. What motivates and inspires you to write?

As my therapist put it oh so nicely, it’s free therapy! Yes, I agree. I get to write about things from my family to things that interest me. If I don’t write about Chiari, it’s because I find myself in denial at times not wanting to face the music, not wanting to accept things, however when I do, it’s a release. Chiari can be like the ‘ole ball and chain, just following me, slowing me down and trying to get me to the lowest of the lows.

3. What is your favorite season/weather and why?

Summer. Although it’s technically Hurricane Season in Florida, Summer is when the kids are home from school, they can spend more time with the little ones without the rush of homework and other things that get in the way during regular school days.

4. If you had the opportunity to travel anywhere and stay where would you go?

How relaxing does Fiji sound?! To lay by the clear blue waters, having some coconut water, enjoying the nice view, the breeze and stay on those over-water bungalows, yes please!

5. If you could start over in life would you change anything?

I wouldn’t choose to start my life over. I know the ending of some events in my life brought me great sadness, like the end of relationships or initial diagnosis of my illness. But all that is inevitable. Things happen where either you learn from them, you learn through time to accept them, you keep them in your heart, but never allow them to hold you back from anything. From moving forward. My diagnosis was bound to come into my life sooner or later, and I think it’s best to always know, go to your doctor and know what’s wrong. So that then you can take the necessary steps to get you on the right track.

6. What is the one makeup product you cannot live without?

My OLAY Moisturizer  have used it for years and haven’t nor would I trade it for any other.

7. What is your #1 passion in life? Why?

I think it’s more like my mission in life. And that is to raise good people, good citizens and followers of Jesus. The Lord has granted me the blessing and privileged to care for the children that He’s sent to me. I struggle daily, I do something that shows the impatient mother in me, but He always has enough mercy for me to give me another day to make things right.

8. What are the three things you would bring with you on a desert island?

OK, this list is way too short, can we group my tribe aka family in one?! Thank you! 1. Familia 2. my phone because Lord knows if the tribe will be bored and 3. food because there’s always someone hungry around these parks, always!

9. If you were going to college right now what would you major in?

Criminal Justice. I’ve loved law since I first started to work in a law firm at about 16 years old and my heart just fell in love with it. I’m an artist by trait, but love law.

10. Favorite quote?

I love many but if I can apply one for today, it would be …

‘If life changes to be harder, change yourself to be stronger’

So, incredibly true, we can’t change life, the things, the breakups, the heartaches, the diagnosis that have been dealt to us, but we change our perspective.

11. Favorite genre of food?

I love Thai food. So, yummy – some of my favorite dishes are Tom Yum Gung – the lemongrass with mushrooms is delicious, Pad Thai and for dessert, not exactly an authentic dessert from Thailand, it was introduced by the Thai restaurants in America and labeled “Thai Donuts.” You must try these small fluffy biscuits drizzled with sweet condensed milk, so savory! This must be what those white fluffy things floating in sky taste like, it just must!

My Nominees:

Outside Air

My Li’l Place

Simply Chronically Ill

Questions: I’m going to borrow these from Alexyss because they were great! Thank you Alexyss!

  1. How did you first get into blogging?
  2. What motivates and inspires you to write?
  3. What is your favorite season/weather and why?
  4. If you had the opportunity to travel anywhere and stay where would you go?
  5. If you could start over in life would you change anything?
  6. What is the one makeup product you cannot live without?
  7. What is your #1 passion in life? Why?
  8. What are the three things you would bring with you on a desert island?
  9. If you were going to college right now what would you major in?
  10. . Favorite quote?
  11. . Favorite genre of food?

To my nominees, I hope you know that I love your blog and that I think you are amazing! I look forward to reading your answers.

Have a wonderful night!

A-

Love, Life + Chiari

Love, Life + Chiari

It’s a bit ironic that I keep coming up on articles about love and heartache. This topic is particularly complex for me because love is a topic that – in my opinion, many have different views on. I live with Chiari + Syringomyelia which like any condition can be lonely. This is why many may experience a bit of depression and anxiety. This all can get in the way of maybe allowing others into your personal space and by this, I mean everyone, children, spouse, you name it, preventing you from loving. So, how do you love, when you are trying to love yourself and accepting the new you? I don’t know your answer to that. It’s no secret that I’m still trying to accept my own personal struggles with the 2013 diagnosis, so much so that I decided to seek help. If you’ve read my Chiari + Mental Illness you’ll know that the help came in form of my therapist.

Since my diagnosis I’ve felt that I’ve wanted to go back in time, thinking that maybe things would be different. That’s such a lie, isn’t it? Because the Chiari diagnosis would have come regardless of where my life would have gone, if not where I am now, it would have still been the same. I have my highs and lows, I suppose like anyone living with a health condition and chronic pain, and trying to come to terms with it. I say that while wanting to believe I’ve accepted the diagnosis. Like it’s OK! Or is it?! But, why do I want to go back in time? Maybe because I haven’t fully accepted my condition, to really say, I have Chiari?! Ugh. Those dreaded words. It’s at times overwhelming – exhausting!

And just like the feeling you get from the loss of a love due to a break up and heartbreak, I’ve felt that feeling of wanting to come up for air. I’m gasping for air and I’m trying so hard to stay above waters. I’m definitely treating Chiari like a long lost love, the only difference is that, I’d rather live without it. All this reading on love and heartache has brought back some memories of when I was younger and in love, carefree, in love with life, in love with my plans for the future – Chiari wasn’t there. I went through such a bad heartbreak at a young age and feel it’s all molded me in who I am today – maybe not a person I’d want to be, but it did change me. I was and continue to be a work in progress because of the emotional damage. My husband has had to help me unpack all this baggage that I’ve carried with me – willing to or not, he’s had to deal with it. A love, past or present has a way of marking your life, to touch it, to influence it. I read somewhere, “Love is Pain.” It is, so if you’re willing to love, you’re also willing to go through the pain it can possibly cause. And if there’s a breakup – and you loved them, you continue to love that person because of whom they were with you. However, as time goes by that person is no longer the same, because time has gone by and they’re not the same person you knew. Or are they? How do you let go? I don’t think you do, I think time heals a broken heart but I think that person will forever remain in your life, in form of a memory – in the memories you both shared. A connection you build with someone you fall in love with is incredibly strong, and you can say it isn’t so, but believe that there is someone out there that you will connect with in such a deeper level that they will change the course of your life. Love – true love, is something that not many experience in their lifetime. If you lose it or still have it, it’s something that not many get to experience in their lives. And if you haven’t, have hope that one day you will.

And when you do, when you find true love, you will experience one of the greatest joys life has to offer. And that is what life’s all about!

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Photo: John Jennings