How incredible that I’ve made it this far?! I want to start the month off by writing a few truths to myself and what version of me I want to be moving forward.
In living with chronic pain there are always different feelings, one minute I’m tired, the next I’m happy, excited, the next I’m drained and filled with intense physical pain. So, as much as I can’t control nor predict how I’ll be feeling physically, I want to be a little more positive moving forward. It can be draining to feel as if I’m a walking ‘Debby Downer.’ Or am I just imagining that?! Perhaps I am – I tend to be a little dramatic.
Note to self for this new year – 2020. Be honest with self.
+ Stop feeling sorry for your illness. Things happen, trust in Him that all will be well.
+ Yes. You are sick. Accept it.
+ No one’s judging you for your illness. They just don’t know better.
+ Take your medication, including your vitamins, they’re good for you. Less pain equals less mood swings.
+ Schedule your doctors appointments. It is for your well being. If not for you, for your family.
+ Take charge of your life.
+ Don’t make commitments. You can’t keep them. Not because you don’t want to, but because you can’t predict how you will feel.
+ Your children will admire your strength and determination to keep going – despite it all.
+ Stop wanting people to understand your illness. They don’t. And they won’t. And that’s OK.
+ People don’t understand the energy that it takes for you to be open to ‘doing’ things – accepting visitors etc. It’s OK.
+ Put your energy into those who matter.
+ Be patient. Patience will get you far.
+ Be loving with yourself. Love yourself. Your body will love you for it. The weight gain is minuscule to what really matters. THYROID equals your weight gain. No one is entitled nor deserves to know this. You do. And that’s enough.
+ You’re sick. Accept it. Once you do, you’ll see life differently and only then, will you truly begin to live.
I’m sure there are one or two things that may have slipped my mind. But for now, this is a good start. These truths are not to demean or shame myself, they’re to help me see who I am and who I’d like to be moving forward.