This post for ‘Reblog Wednesday’ couldn’t have come at a better time. The thoughts of wanting to feel better physically are reoccurring thoughts, coming in too often throughout my day. And the fact that I can’t change my circumstance or diagnosis is evident in this post and is the perfect reminder of things I conveniently choose to forget. This ‘Reblog Wednesday’ is from a blogger I hold dear and near to my heart, Stuart, his honesty, love for Christ and life, is what I appreciate from reading his work. I couldn’t appreciate him more than I already do.
This post unraveled the truths of my reality. I can either learn to accept my reality or continue to live in the falsehood of reminiscing of what my life once was – life without the prescription medication and physical pain. It’s up to me. If I can only touch ground, ‘come back to Earth,’ as they say, and stop living in the clouds, I’d be able to open my eyes to see my life as it is. And perhaps only then will my sense of purpose fuel my desire to live a more happy and fulfilled life.
The conversation with God in the post reminded me of my own conversations with God.
I want to tell God what to fix in my life …
my diagnosis – fix it, reverse it,
my physical pain – take it away,
my old, ‘normal self’ – bring her back,
my finances – increase it,
my brain / head – make it stop spinning,
my son’s autism diagnosis – make it better,
my happiness – give me more of it.
And all the while, I’ve been praying for what I cannot change. He’s saying surrender, trust me, leave it to me as I do all things for a reason – beyond your humble comprehension. The reasons for it, all will be revealed in due time – patience. And love, love is what I need, it’s what I should be praying more for, so that I may accept my diagnosis with love, accept things that I will not be able to change.
The trials and tribulations are only there to get me away from worldly things and closer to Him.
Have a blessed day.
I asked God to take away my habit. God said, No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up. I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. God said, No.. His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary. I asked God to grant me patience. God […]
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